Friday, October 13, 2006
Lookin' at these photos just brings back memories of YLG which ended the week before...I'm still raw from it I guess...I still miss my new found friends, some of whom i love deeply like friends of several years. I was just commenting to my friend the other day that whenever I see caucasians, i'd imagine that it's YLG part 2 and somehow my friends would just appear right in front of me hah!
I miss being in the presence of God daily with 450 people who are desperate and hungry for Him... I miss being engaged in worship on a daily basis ( i must cultivate this habit now that im back and more focused!!!) Miss connecting with people from all over the world! Miss small group! Miss miss miss miss miss everything... =( The oNLY thing, in all honesty, that i'm happy about now is the ability to purchase a decent cuppa coffee anytime i want. Another would be being back at home with friends and family... But still...sighs!! =(
However, i did notice a change that I'm thankful to God for. I worship lead in youth service and truthfully, i used to dread my turn because i felt so inadequate, utterly unworthy and I didn't feel that i was ready to lead anything. But I knew that it was what God had wanted me to do so I did it anyway-with much fear and trembling, which is not a good thing in this case. =) Anyway, I'm scheduled to lead for this saturday's service, and it being my first time leading after YLG, i felt nervous yet more confident to lead cuz of what i've experienced at YLG, the healing and the knowledge of my "identity" in Christ. So, I had my practice last night and I just wanna give God ALL the glory that He gave me the boldness to share alil' bit about YLG to my band mates and like how my perspective of worship and God had changed after that and like I just felt God's presence with me as I led them into a chorus and prayer and Yeah it was sooo good...God is sooo awesome!!! I guess I kinda know why God brought me there to YLG though Im the most undeserving to go, now i see a glimpse of His purpose. =) Thank you Abba...
Anyways, had a great meeting just now with the "PaRTY PeoplE Committee"! We went to recce a few great Sites for upcoming events and then headed down to the Airport for late dinner (POPEYE's CHICKEN!) and just being at the airport once again reminded me of the moments i had to wait with Mary for her flight. I looked at the faces that passed me by and I wondered when it'll be my turn to just board a plane and go to Europe to find my dear friends, Gaby in Bulgaria and Esther in France. I've been thinking about this for soo long!! I truly long to see them again soon cuz these are 2 special people in my heart =) You Hear that???!!! =) I dunno if they'll read this haha...But what the heck...I sooo wanna just get on a plane and fly away to somewhere exotic like Europe, Alaska, wherever and stay there for a couple of years!! I think i'm a vagabond! =) Think Ive asked God like a million times as to when i can travel, and just now I thought I heard Him whisper "Very soon". I sure hope that was You Lord and not my own selfish voice cuz I really do not wanna miss His moment and wander off on my own. Nopes! =) I think "Still" and "Oceans Will Part" are my theme songs for this season..."Still" cuz of that line="I will soar with You above the Storm...I will be still and know You are God" and "Know His Power, in quietness and trust" Love those lines...I NEED to be Still in the presence of God! My mind's so cluttered with unnecessary things and my heart needs to quieten down and hear His whisper..."Oceans Will Part" carries a deep sense of purpose to me. Especially that Line "In my life, Your will be done". Indeed Lord, let my life be an offering to You and in my life, Your will be done. Gotta go snooze now, early morning tomorrow...Good night friends. =)
had your cuppa?
Rach
10:31 AM